Tomorrow is my birthday and I can honestly say that I’m okay with turning another year older. We’re good. There’s no need to panic over the fact that I’m slowly inching my way closer to the big 4-0. Whenever you asked my grandmother how old she was, she would always tell you, “I’m between 25 and 100.” I thought I would start replying with that same answer when people asked my age. But to be honest, I’m embracing it. So before you even ask me, I will tell you – I am going to be 36 and I am completely okay with that!
In fact, I’m more than okay with it. I’m looking forward to 36 because 35 has been pretty good to me. Like most years, it’s had its ups and downs. But as I round out this year of my life, I will say that I’ve learned some things about myself and about life in general. They are lessons that I will use as I move forward into this new year of life. For instance, sometimes life is a bit like a Monet painting. It can be a little fuzzy at first, but you need to take a step back and look at the bigger picture. Life is made up of tiny, little moments and it’s all about how you look at those moments that matters.
Let’s face it – there’s no denying that I am getting older. With that, I have learned the importance of taking care of myself. I have become a sprouted grain eating, Kombucha drinking, oil sniffing, crystal charging, semi-barefoot, hippie wannabe. Mock my crunchiness, if you will, but I’m completely embracing this natural and free version of myself. I grow patchouli in my garden, chase rainbows, and let my hair go wild. Whatevs. It’s cool, man. Peace, love, and Jessica.
My biggest lesson this year (and I sort of thank my new crunchiness for it) is learning how to RELAX! I was a girl who couldn’t nap if my life depended on it. Two minutes after my head hit the pillow, I was back up and on the move again! Maybe I’m finally achieving that balance that I sought after at the beginning of the year. Maybe I’m just learning how to chill the eff out. Either way, I appreciate my new superpower and I hope to catch up on all of that napping that I missed out on this year.
I’ve learned to move forward and stop dwelling on things that happened in the past. Holding grudges and holding onto negativity doesn’t help anyone. Sing it with me now, “Let it go! Let it GO!” I have freed that past self and embraced a new and improved version of me. I’ve learned that it’s okay to speak your mind. Just know when to bite your tongue instead.
Lastly, I know I am right where I need to be in life. There is no sense in wasting time waiting or overthinking the “what ifs.” Que sera, sera. Let life happen and enjoy. Never take each moment for granted. Use them as a lesson. And that’s exactly what I will be doing as I celebrate another year of learning, growing, and maybe even becoming a little wiser along the way.